Just when you thought everything seemed to have been falling into place was the time that you realize that it was going otherwise - falling into pieces like uneven glass shards.
I have had my lows and believe me when i say I have had. These lows were not actually shallow-deep lows but rather lows ranging from the below sea level all the way down the ocean floors.
I am tired of getting to experience these things. At 21, I have been tested and still in the continuation of being tested by unforeseen natural force that sometimes I just think of giving up and letting myself drift away and just drown myself of misery and surrender.
The world seems to be against me that even the rarest and plainest things go with the unusual and unfortunate turn of events like my PC. I am alone, single and happy but lest the career, I could only handle so much. Just when I knew what I wanted to do that employers close their doors on me. They shut and lock those doors throwing their keys at the tiger den for safety. I have waited patiently for months, thought for months and hopeful during those times. Jobs that I wanted seemed to just be with the second hand of the clock coming in passing.
I have made too many bad decisions...Too many things in my to-do list and nothing seems to have been accomplished...Too many remorse and too many complaints that never seem to end...Too many expectations that are expected of me that I could not seem to meet...Too many dreams circumvented with webs and strands of disillusioned and cynical ways that seem to just be dreams unfulfilled...I am jaded, weary and fallen out of logical judgment...I am plucked from optimism, clouded with sorrows and in the brink of my breaking point...my threshold...
When will this end?When will I see the rainbow after that storm?When will I be me again, strong and flamboyant, optimistic and hopeful and a cheerful Satyr again?
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